"Would you rather live in a fantasty, or deal with reality?" Personally, I have become quite fond of my fantasies. While reality is satisfying and in no way do I live a life that requires medication for sedation, I do find the art of spinning elaborate fantasies in my head to be most comforting. To be honest, well, it feel kind of normal to me. I am not sure how I would make it through the day if I were not spinning some psuedo life for myself. Fantasies, make believe...Were else can a girl like me write a song that everyone wants to hear, or write a book that everyone is dying to read. Where else but in the depths of my mind am I going to meet my prince charming after he spots me from across the room at a rock show. He of course searched the arena over looking for me when I disappeared from his sight.
It reality I am a mother. In reality I am a mail clerk that can barely pay the rent, much less find money for rock shows and cocktails. In reality I have the friends I love, I keep them close and it is hard for me to let other's in. In reality I am safe...Sometimes a girl just wants to cut loose, and that is what fantasies are for. Maybe someday, I will do a flip switch and the girl that exists in my head with wade out from underneath the suffocating waves of doubt that keep me down, but for now, I will enjoy the tales I spin.
It reality I am a mother. In reality I am a mail clerk that can barely pay the rent, much less find money for rock shows and cocktails. In reality I have the friends I love, I keep them close and it is hard for me to let other's in. In reality I am safe...Sometimes a girl just wants to cut loose, and that is what fantasies are for. Maybe someday, I will do a flip switch and the girl that exists in my head with wade out from underneath the suffocating waves of doubt that keep me down, but for now, I will enjoy the tales I spin.
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